| me: | *sick* |
| me: | *goes on the computer* |
| parents: | OH I GUESS SINCE YOU'RE ON THE COMPUTER IT MEANS THAT YOU'RE PERFECTLY 100% BETTER NOW GO TO SCHOOL AND GRADUATE AND GET A JOB AND GET MARRIED AND DIE |
so i just wanted to explain a few things to like the 10 people that follow me on here that i know irl. i mainly wirtting this becuz im waaaayyyy to awkward and terrified to tell you this in person. umm ya hi. so i have this thing called depression, i actually have been diagnosed with it by a doctor and i take medicine for it so yaaaa. Everyone is always like “ohmysquash ur so sad all the time” well im sorry that i am, i really fucking am. iv had depression for the past 5 years and iv had many relapses. i have had eating disorders and have self harmed. to the few of you that actually talk to me in school, first of all thank you, second of all im sorry. im sorry if i make you sad, or if i make things really awkward. im just a very stupid person, who hates herself more than anyone ever could. iv been made fun of and screwed over basically everytime i try to start a friendship with someone, so ya i can be a little stand offish sometimes. basically i want to say that i do not choose to be depressed, and i have reasons as to why im upset alot. theres alot of terrible dark shit thats happened to me and it permanently scarred me. im just really fucking shy and weird and i dont know how to talk to people, so thank you for not finding me completely abnormal. oh and im sorry for being like that as well. k bye
Naomi: It all means so much to you, doesn’t it?
Cook: What?
Naomi: Life. You just live a bit harder than everybody else does. You splash about. You wallow in it. Like you can’t lose a moment.
(via skinsgalaxy)
